Monday, 3 September 2012

Manchester Pride 2012 (4)

August 21st Tuesday

After breakfast in the Retro. Diana and myself went shopping. Diana said she wanted a new pair of jeans. She told me about her problems with buying jeans. Over the years I've noticed she has a problem finding anything she likes when out with me. I know I buy more clothes when on my own. I think sometimes when you are by yourself it is easier. I love going out shopping with my friends and I've had some wonderful shopping trips with girlfriends. Shopping with friends is usually the highlight of any time out for me. With Diana I had a plan to make this shopping trip slightly more interesting for her. 

As we passed the carpark we saw the main stage was starting to take shape.
We first took care of something Di needed to sort out. I then took her to Frasers department store. We had a look at some shoes and jeans. I said to Di she could find some jeans or lovely trousers here, but we were going to have a champagne cocktail. She looked at me a bit dubiously, but I had wanted to have a drink at the cocktail bar and to have a cocktail with Di I thought would be lovely. She has been a good friend who has always helped me and this was just a small thank you.

 
                                       Two pictures of  Diana and myself  at the cocktail bar

Afterwards we continued shopping and Diana ended up buying a beautiful outfit that she wore when we went to see a show in Polari that evening.
The show was by VADA LGBTQ Community Theatre Company, it was called 'Two Minute Queers'. The show was billed as a series of 2 minute plays about being LGBTQ in austerity Britain. They ranged from serious to very funny. For me the highlights were The Tantric Tarot sketches. The whole show was great. Di and myself were the only 2 from the Trans community there, and to be honest there wasn't much really about the T part of LGBTQ.
   
We did meet a couple of the cast and had a chat with them.
Diana had to go home at the end of the night, but she would be back on Friday when Pride really got started.

August 22 Wednesday

I decided to take a trip to Birmingham. The wig salon in Frasers would be my main reason for going. I guess that is the nearest I'll get to having my hair done.


I noticed The Womens stage was in the process of being built in Sackville Gardens.
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I got the train to Birmingham which wasn't to busy.


In Birmingham I  saw what was like a mini wicker man dedicated to the London Olympics.
Rain clouds were gathering. I went to Frasers and got what I needed. I found a nice pair of jeans in Jane Norman.
Since I'd been out I'd had no access to the internet and no television. To be honest I wasn't bothered. I had seen very little news. I was in my own bubble. I did find a internet cafe and put a post on Facebook, to say how much I was enjoying myself.
  I stayed a couple of hours in Birmingham. It was very busy and I decided to get back to Manchester as it looked like it was about to rain.



On the journey back I got a strange photo of a plane.


Back in The Village I was starting to be recognised, I had been there a week. I had one interesting encounter when a shopkeeper asked me if I just finished work. The expression on my face must have said it all. He was a nice bloke I had chatted with a few times. I thought oh no not again.
He got a bit of a panicked look and said "Sorry I didn't mean...." He seemed genuine and I replied that I was on holiday and down for Pride.  He looked very relieved and said that I looked like I worked in an office. I guess I was dressed the part. I think it was a misunderstanding on my part. I don't pass, but it was nice to be treated as another female customer.
That evening I met up with Kate for a light meal in Taurus. We ended up dancing in Naps till about 2am.

August 23rd Thursday.

I was on my own again and decided to visit The Lesbian and Gay Foundation on Richmond Street to see if I could talk to someone about something that has bothered me for years. The LGF from what I understand deals with sexuality not identity which is why there is not a T in it's name. There are organisations that deal with Transgender identity problems.
I met with a female counsellor.and explained  about myself. We talked for about an hour and she was very helpful. I feel I am Bi. When out presenting as female I find myself attracted to some men. I used to react not very well to some admirers, but these days if they don't treat me as a piece of meat, I'm ok with them and enjoy chatting. Would I go further ? I really don't know. My sex drive seems to come back when I'm out. I haven't had sex for years. I have health problems that  affect my drive, but it's not completely gone. Still got a lot of questions about my self. Perhaps I'll never find the answers, but it did help to talk to someone.

After the LGF I went to Selfridges to get some advice on my make up at the MAC and Bobby Brown concessions. I came away with some samples to try and bought some great remover from Bobby Brown and a fantastic BB cream. In Debanhams I bought something that helps with my body shape. They were actually bum booster knicks. I went back to Taurus and changed into them. They were so good, I thought, that I went back to buy 2 more pairs.
In Piccadilly Gardens I stopped to listen to 2 excellent musicians.


I then went to Afflecks Market to see my friend who runs The Crystalhenge stall. When in Manchester I buy a few crystals and it's great to talk to Terry who runs Crystalhenge. I am a Wiccan and interested in Tarot and other esoteric things. I have my beliefs anf I don't expect others to understand. I try to live by the Wiccan Rede which says 'Do what ye will, an harm it none'. Basically I am responsible for whatever I do and must try to  do as little harm as possible.
Terry kindly agreed to take a picture of me at his stall.
I did buy a lovely heart shaped necklace that I wore that night.

That evening I went  to Taurus after getting changed to watch 'Gay It's a Knockout'
At Taurus the Gay Gordons Scottish Country Dance Group were in full flow dancing outside Taurus.

Then the fun started with Gay It's a Knockout. First up was the high heeled egg and spoon race.


There was quite a crowd outside Taurus. I bumped into Karen Richards and there was another Tgirl in the crowd.
After watching for awhile I left and decided to find somewhere quieter for a sit down and drink.
The other Tgirl left as well and caught up with me. I  said hello  and she told me her name was Gabriela and she was from Portugal. Karen had disappeared so I  asked Gabriela if she wanted a drink. She said to  call her Gabi as that might be easier.
I took her to Via and and couple of other places. In Icon we met an older Gay couple who were looking at the old pictures of Canal Street. They told me about a Gay club in the Northern Quarter in the 80's which sounded like the first place I ventured out to over 20 years ago. It was called Rockies.
We went to the New Union where we met a young woman and a young Gay couple who gave us some funny advice on bigger boobs. The night came to an end.  Gabi and myself discovered we were staying in the same hotel. We exchanged phone numbers and agreed to meet in the morning to get our wristbands that would give us access to The Village when it was blocked off for Pride.

                                               Gabi and myself in The New Union




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Sunday, 2 September 2012

Manchester Pride 2012 (3)

August 18th Saturday

Another breakfast in the Retro I then took some more pictures round the Village.
I went to Sackville Gardens where the Quakers were showing their support for Pride.
From what I understand the Quakers sit silently and contemplate and if someone wants to say something they can. As a religion I have a lot of respect for them. They let their actions speak for them and don't push their ideals on to others by preaching and telling others what to do.
While sitting quietly on a bench a man came over and asked if he could sit next to me. At first I though t another admirer trying to pick me up, but we had a nice chat. He told me his nae was Stuart. He did ask me about myself and we spoke for awhile. I know he was chatting me up, but I politely said I wasn't interested   in sex. He took that with good grace and we continued chatting. It was great not to be treated as some sort of brain dead piece of meat only  useful for one thing.
I wished him well after  chatting for 20 minutes.   I also spoke to a lady from the LGF (Lesbian Gay Foundation) about shoes of all things.

 
                                                  Pride banners overlooking the canal



                                                           Poster I saw in Taurus


I met up with Di in the afternoon and later Kate, Kitty and Ashley.
In Taurus I bumped into one of the Irish women who was collecting for something to do with the Salford City Reds rugby league team who were on a pub crawl in The Village. She said to me while laughing not to donate because they were getting drunk and becoming a bit rude.
I wore my new dress and was very happy with it.
We ended up in Naps where I really enjoyed myself dancing. Back at the hotel Di took a couple of pictures for me.






August 19th Sunday

The Retro was shut so Di and myself  had something to eat in the Olive Deli. The manager asked me how I was and told me he had been in Naps but could remember much.
We then went to Sackville Gardens to see Pink Doggy Pride  which was unfortunately plagued with heavy rain. We decided to go into town and go shopping. The rain would continue throughout Pride which was unfortunate. At this time there were a lot of fringe events going on. Pride itself wouldn't start until Friday.
In the evening we had a nce meal in Eden. Afterwards we ended up in ICON where Misty Chance a very talented performer and drag queen was doing a show. She was really funny.

 
                                                         Misty Chance in ICON

August 20th Monday

Diana had to go to work but would be back in the evening so I was on my own again. I went for a wander.

The preparations for Pride were underway. The main stage would be built in the carpark across from The Thomson Arms.


I did some shopping and then ended up in Salford which I didn't know at the time.



I also had a look at Manchester Cathedral

 
A sign outside Afflecks Market
 
In the evening Di got back from work and we went for a meal in VIA.
 

After drinks also in The New Union ICON and Churchills, by midnight The Village was empty.

Saturday, 1 September 2012

Manchester Pride 2012 {2}

15th August

I left  home early in the morning with 2 bags that were quite heavy. I had to really think about what clothes to take and leave space for anything I bought.
The train journey was uneventful, and when I got to Preston to change trains for Manchester I started to feel really good. I took my first picture. I love history and I took a few photos of things I found interesting not just related to Pride. I also took photos of venues around The Gay Village in Manchester.


I changed trains and when I reached Manchester I felt so happy. I made my way to Taurus and had a drink and also a nice chat with the staff who remembered me from previous times out. It was then time to check into the hotel and get changed.



All ready to start my odessey I went out for some essentials. Later that evening I met up with Kate and Kitty and ended up in Naps dancing till 2am. It felt good to be back.

                                                              With Kate in naps

Thursday 16th August

Morning and I would get into a ritual that would last for the next 12 days. First I would go to the Retro Bar just up from the hotel. Their breakfast is great value and really sets you up for the day.

                                                                      The Retro Bar

After breakfast I went for a walk around The Village and then on through Chinaown.
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                                                                  New York New York
                       NY NY a former home of Manchester Concord . Can get really busy.  

                                                               
                                                            The arch in Chinatown




While out shopping I bought a new dress from Monsoon, a favourite  shop of mine. After shopping I made my way back to the Village.
I had started to keep notes in a diary Kate and Kitty had given me for Christmas so I'm basically using those notes.

Back to Village, relaxing drink in Taurus. Coffee in Olive Deli, staff were really helpful when I had a problem picking up coffee.
Evening, did my nails and  went for drinks in Village. Met  Karen Richards  in Icon, who was heavily involved in organising Sparkle.

Back at the hotel, I met 3 lovely Irish women who asked me about the Gay Village. I said Thursday wasn't the best night out, but tomorrow should be better.
I was very tired and had an early night.

17th August  (Friday)

Feet were starting to suffer. I did some more shopping and took more pics.


                                     McTucky's, on the corner  of Canal and Sackville Street

                               The Rembrandt another former home of  Manchester Concord


VIA a friendly pub on Canal Street. During Sparkle I was very impressed with their atitude


                                         Polari a nice quieter gay club next to VIA


                                                       Very quiet Canal Street

                               View a bar that I don't go in much now when I visit the Village


                                        Churchills another bar that I go in from time to time



I decided not  to let my feet get the better of me and took a wander round the Northern Quarter.

 
 
Back in The Village I had a drink in Taurus and then the Olive Deli.
That evening in the Village there was a strange atmosphere with some wierd  and at times nasty men trying to pick me up. I tried each time to politely say no but got verbal abuse. One on a bike told me I was insulting him because I would go with him.
I decided it would be better if  I went back to the hotel. I'd had a lovely day out and sometimes in The Village at night if you are the only Tgirl  it's not the nicest place to be. Don't get me wrong the bars and clubs are fine it's just you sometimes come across some idiots on the street.
Back at the hotel I met the 3 Irish women again who invited me to go to Tiger Tiger with them. Unfortunately my feet were killing me so I had to decline.
 
 

  























Wednesday, 29 August 2012

Manchester Pride 2012 (1)

Back from Manchester Pride, and getting round to writing this has been difficult. I had a fantastic time despite warnings that I would be the only trans person there at times which wasn't true. I arrived before even  the fringe started. I actually spent a day shy of 2 weeks out and loved every minute of it.
I'll post in a bit more detail about what I saw with plenty of pictures and what I did each day, but as a taster here's an idea of what happened.
First I saw my friends at various points and I hope they enjoyed themselves as much as I did.
I had some counselling at the LGF which was a great help. I had never spent so long out and I was hoping to learn more about myself. Sort of related was a palm reading. I drank more than usual, but avoided getting drunk. Saw and heard some great live music. Met some wonderful people and made a new friend. Did lots of shopping and spent to much. Took 3 trips outside the City of Manchester which were interesting for me.
The one thing I can say is those 2 weeks were one of the best times I've had and I feel really sad that it's all over. What wasn't good was  my feet swelled up.    

Monday, 13 August 2012

Sparkle 2012 {Sunday and Monday}

Alex came round to the apartment and after a short discussion about what we should do I suggested the Alan Turing exhibition at the Manchester Museum. I had already been to see it and I knew Diana would  be very interested. It was a beautiful day so it was decided and we had a nice walk to the museum.
13/8/12
I kind of forgot about this post with all that has been going on in my life at the moment. The Sunday was wonderful. In the evening we spent a great night in Via. The next morning with me back in bob mode I took Diana to the Retro Bar for breakfast as a small thank you. As bob it was nice for me to take a beautiful woman out for a meal. I'd had a fantastic time and now I'm on the verge of my next time out. I hope everything goes well.
The Olympics have just finished and they have shown a fantastic side to  this country. I hope the feel good remains for as long as possible and it has a real positive effect on British society.
I'll finish this post with a couple more photos of a wonderful happy time for me.







   

Sunday, 22 July 2012

Sparkle 2012 (Saturday)

I woke up Saturday morning full of energy. Once Diana and myself were ready we went to the Olive Deli for  breakfast and then on to the Arndale for a spot of shopping. Diana found a beautiful dress while I bought some essentials. I did take her to a shop she had asked me about and managed to get a couple of photos on the way.Unfortunately the only photos I have are of myself.



It came time for us to head back to The Village and Sparkle in the Park.
Sackville Gardens was very busy. Everything was in full swing. Live music on the stage a multitude of stalls.
I noticed there were a lot of apparently non trans people out enjoying themselves. This year I would say Sparkle attracted a very diverse crowd. It was fantastic to see. In the media this year we have had the reality series television 'My Transsexual Summer' which I'm sorry to say I never saw. Some of the stars of that series were out at Sparkle. This year as well we also had the trans based drama 'Hit and Miss' which I did see. I hope these programmes had a positive effect on the general public's perception of transgender people.
The atmosphere in the park I felt was very relaxed so maybe a positive change has begun.





While in the gardens I bumped into a few people I know. I managed a brief chat with Kristina a lovely lass who went with me to the Alan Turing Exhibition last time I was in Manchester. I would take Diana and Alex to see it on Sunday.
One funny thing was the students, who I think were on a annual pub crawl, dressed as cartoon characters.


It came time to go back to the apartment and get changed for the evening. I left earlier than Diana, Kate and Kitty as it takes me longer to get ready. I take longer I guess because in the end  I have more to hide especially when it comes to shaving. It would be a dream just to redo my make up and change clothes. Wearing a wig is not so much of a problem when it's comfortable. I guess the cruel joke is I am losing the one set of hair I want to keep.
I got a good head start getting ready before everyone arrived back at the apartment.
When we were all ready we took in a few places including Eden and the Retro Bar
but ended up in Naps which as you can imagine got very busy.
Saturday is the highlight of Sparkle but this year more people seemed to stay over for Sunday.
The night came to an end and my shortest stay in Manchester for awhile was rapidly drawing to a close.
I said goodbye to Kate and Kitty as they would be out on Sunday. It was time for some sleep. I had one full day left.  
  




Tuesday, 17 July 2012

Sparkle 2012 (Friday)

Sparkle The National Transgender Celebration, I was not sure I was going to make it to Manchester for this one with all the things going on in my life at the moment. I did make it and was so glad because I had a wonderful time.
This was my third Sparkle and the best one yet, for me at least. I felt the atmosphere was very relaxed and friendly. There seemed to be more non trans people at this one than at the other two I've attended and that was great to see. I hope this is a sign that society is beginning to see that we are people who want to express ourselves and contribute to the wider whole in a positive way.
I saw and heard quite a few things about Transphobia over the weekend. When people target a group to discriminate, hurt and sometimes ultimately kill a person for who they are. It makes me wonder if they ever question or look deep within themselves as to  why they have these feelings. I must admit from a young age knowing I was transgender frightened me. Other peoples attitudes and how people may view and treat me scares the life out of me to this day.
Sparkle is a weekend where I can put that all aside for a short time, be with friends, meet new people and effectively allow my female aspect full reign.
I got into Manchester about Midday and went to Taurus where they let me use their changing facility. I would be staying with Diana at The Atrium Apartments. Diana would not get into Manchester till about 3 30pm. I must give a big thanks to Diana for letting me stay with her.
After I got changed I met up with Kate and Kitty for a drink. I was back with friends as what I feel is my true self.
A hectic and wonderful weekend had begun.
I met up with Diana to get the apartment. We then went to Taurus. The evening got very busy and the day caught up with me and I had to get some sleep, so just before midnight I left my friends to go to bed. I felt a very happy and contented woman, or as near as I can get to feeling that way.


Looking very rough and tired

  

Wednesday, 11 July 2012

Wandering {2)

Friday

I had a quite day by myself. A bit of shopping. I was looking for clothes for Manchester Pride which I hope to attend and spend 2 weeks in Manchester. It's quite a prospect for me and I hope to learn more about myself.
I spent the morning clothes shopping, but still couldn't find a handbag I liked.
In the afternoon I decided to take a walk out to Sport City and the Etihad Stadium home of Manchester City. I managed to get a photo balancing the camera on a wheelie bin.


I had a few strange looks but no one bothered me. Probably thought whats that strange woman up to, but more than likely they thought something else.
It was an interesting walk and I had gone out of the city center I felt really pleased with myself. I have always loved exploring places to see what I might find.
That evening back in The Village I met up with a few girls and I'm sad to say I can't remember their names. One Tgirl came out to her boss's sister who for some reason was in Naps with a friend. It was nice bumping into Pip who I'd met with my friend Diana at Sparkle last year.
I stayed out longer that I planned to and was looking a bit haggard, but I'd another wonderful day.

Saturday
I met up with Kristina and we had a wonderful day which included a visit to the Alan Turing exhibition at the Manchester Museum. The rain was still pouring down so we took the bus.
That night Kate came out but unfortunately Kristina missed her as she had to get home.

Sunday
It was a beautiful day. The sun finally came out. Most of the day spent relaxing in Taurus with my friends.
This is a bit of a hurried finish to this post. I am now a day away from Sparkle and I think I've put a few problems which have been dogging me of late behind me. There are others on the horizon, but I'll deal with them as they come.
One thing that saddens me is the realization I can never transition. There are times I feel like I  am in agony, emotionally. Perhaps I am a sad case, but I fight to stay alive and stay reasonably happy. This is my life. I don't have what I want, but I do have what I need to face each day, one at a time.
The Judie Tzuke song 'Left Hand Talking' comes to mind for some reason.

Love and Light
Karen xx